When You Fall In Love...

Hi! I am back at it again. I am writing after so many months of hiatus. Well, you know the reason why, I fell in love. And the answer is yes, I was heartbroken. Exactly the reason why I'm here, writing again. 

I fell in love during the weakest moment of my life. The moments wherein I get to question who was I really, what has become of me during my painful phases, why hasn't everyone tried to appreciate who I am despite the qualities I gained. During those phases, I longed for someone who'd be with me in the process of everything I was feeling. And I found him. And for the first time in everything, I never felt alone. I felt belonged. I was appreciated. I was understood. 

It was one of those rare moments in my life where I found peace, contentment, and without the constant feeling of having to rush everything that is in need of achieving. For once, I am enough. And love made me feel that way. Love made me extremely overjoyed. 

My love helped me overcome my fears. My love taught me the simple joys in life. My love allowed me to cry at the hardest breakdowns I've had. My love made my feelings become so valid and accepted. My love made me so carefree and heard. My love for him became so strong that I held on it for strength, comfort, stability, and growth. In so many heavy years that has passed, now was the time reality became so light and  beautiful, encouraging and brave. 

But also, love gets painful and breaking. The way I did attach myself to him made myself so vulnerable and dependent that I fail short of  becoming the woman for him. I was always the one who is in need of focus. I was always the one who must be considered, felt, and understood. I resulted to telling my love things I regretted telling. I told my love how his presence stresses me out. I became the toxic one I hated the most. All because of my self-centered perspective in love. And in that way, I somehow lost a part of him in me. I lost him unknowingly. 

That's what you get when you fall in love with yourself  and forgetting the other person's need for affection. 

When you fall in love, let it be known that it is not at all about you or your partner. It's about two souls sharing perspective in love. When you fall in love, love with honesty and trust. When you fall in love, it is compromising. When you fall in love, it's always with the right person if you learn to adjust, reciprocate, and appreciate. Love is worth everything. 

To my love, Rio. I will always choose you. And when time comes that it is no longer true, I did become the happiest with you.